Congratulations! If you’re reading this, then Ayahuasca has found you!
Everything happens for a reason exactly when it’s supposed to happen. They say ayahuasca finds you, not the other way around.
Many of us are constantly pondering the meaning of life. A lot of us try our hardest to SEEK OUT the meaning of life when we are in pain. Sometimes we turn to drugs and alcohol, other times we find community in friends, family and working with a therapist. We even avoid our pain by “living on the surface” and by keeping “busy”. Busy, a word I strongly dislike, may be focusing on work, it might be through fitness, or it could be even through new hobbies and projects.
The point is we’re in pain and no matter what it is you do, you just aren’t able to breakthrough to shed yourself of the deep feeling of hollowness that lies beneath the shell of your body.
ENTER MOTHER AYAHUASCA
Ayahausca (Aya) is a plant that stems from the Amazon that is brewed into a tea that you drink during a sacred ceremony. Most describe the tea as unpalatable or even horrendous. I found the tea to be quite tolerable. Although bitter, there’s a grainy / earthy quality to it that reminded me of the unsweetened seedy flavor of acai. But, this isn’t about flavors and in reality you can easily chug down this tea without gagging. Although you will eventually puke aka purge.
Similarly to coughing after smoking marijuana, aya kicks in after you puke better known as purging. But, don’t be turned off or afraid of the puke. The purging is the first beautiful experience in your journey. Mother Aya is releasing the toxins within your body to help you heal your soul. So, let it happen. After the purge, the fun begins as you are now ready to begin your journey. Mother Aya helps you connect deep within yourself and your soul. She will take you on a journey through your subconscious to ultimately show you life’s truths and what matters most to your being.
WHY DO AYAHUASCA?
I’m going to continue with the journey later in this series, but before we talk about the experience; let’s see if you’re ready.
Aya found me around summer of 2018 (about a year before I actually tried ayahuasca for the first time). All my life I’ve felt as though I’m an old soul and have been curious about spirituality. So, naturally when I first learned of ayahuasca I was immediately intrigued. I wasn’t ready though. In fact, I was terrified.
What would I find out about myself?
What if I didn’t like what I found out?
I’m a generally happy person. I don’t “need” ayahuasca.
These are the thoughts that we’re running through my mind.
I decided the time was not right. Although, I kept researching ayahuasca through podcasts, reading, and watching documentaries. I kind of knew it was only a matter of when I would journey as they call it; rather than if I would partake in ayahuasca at all.
So, fast forward to nearly a year later and I’m in a 2 month dark pit of depression. In short, it was finally time to call it quits with my on-and-off again girlfriend of 3 years. Through many tears and painful days and nights I came to so many realizations about why the relationship just didn’t work out. I knew it was all my fault. The pain of regret was unbearable. I felt hollow. I lost the will to create and live a meaningful life. On the surface everything looked great. I lost 20 lbs through working out more and eating healthy and business was thriving. But, deep below the surface I had felt nothing. Just hollowness.
AYA COMES BACK INTO MY LIFE AT THE RIGHT TIME
This is when I randomly came across someone that invited me to a Cacao Ceremony. A cacao ceremony is in essence a spiritual ritual where you do deep meditation and some kundalini yoga mixed in with drinking cacao (raw form of chocolate). Anyway, I went to the ceremony with a close friend and after the ceremony she mentioned to the instructor she was doing ayahuasca in a few weeks. I was taken aback. I thought to myself, here I’ve been talking about aya for close to a year and you didn’t tell me you were taking the plunge!
It was the perfect set of circumstances.
I randomly met the instructor of the cacao ceremony through LinkedIn of all places. My friend was down to join me on the adventure and she accidentally let it slip in front of me that she would be doing ayahuasca soon.
Fast forward to my friend’s journey. She was the second friend of mine that I had too many to count long talks about ayahuasca. Being in the pain I was in, I knew without a shadow of a doubt that my time has come and so I signed up for an ayahuasca ceremony 2 weeks later.
Remember, my faithful reader, everything happens for a reason exactly when it’s supposed to happen. So, realize that Mother Aya has found you. Listen to your soul. Be in touch with who you are. Finding you is just Step 1. You’ll know when your time to journey has come.
Ayahuasca truly is the most beautiful experience in my life and I hope one day you get to experience Mother Ayahuasca in all her beauty.
Sam AKA SwagSam